Monday, September 22, 2008

G had his school eval, and we'll find out on Wednesday if he qualifies. I'm nervous. On one hand, I want him to qualify but on the other, I don't. I've never sent any of my other kids to school before they turned five, so this is way different (as many other things have been, but still...)for me. What a big step for momma. LOL

Last week when the pt was here, G was so uncooperative. He's been rather difficult with me recently, too. It's tough when there are possible underlying factors. Is it his shunt or is it just being three? Everyone else wants to think it's just being three. Me? I'm not sure. But, I also don't feel like it couldn't be. It's always figuring out what's going on, and sometimes that gets so difficult. He's not three yet, by the way. That is one week away!! How is it possible this kid is approaching three so quickly??

We took G to the airshow to see the Blue Angels despite his aversion to loud noises. With his ears covered he did remarkably well. :)

Thursday, September 04, 2008

This morning I was emailing another mom about clubfeet and shared some photos with her. I hadn't been in the clubfoot folder for awhile, but my goodness. G was so little. He's approaching three shortly here, and I find myself going back to that last month of pregnancy. It was so marked with doctor visits, with unknowns and worries, and here we are today.

Life, though more difficult in some ways, is so much easier now that he's here. It's just life when you're living it, but when you're waiting for something and worrying, you're not living. You're suspended, and frankly, it really sucks. Limbo Land. I've been fussing about the shunt the last couple weeks. Is he three (two) or is it excessive irritability? For him, he's more cranky than usual. Growth spurt or excessive sleepiness? He's growing but combined with the cranky, I'm not sure. I'm not a fan of this Limbo Land but I have gotten better at dealing with it. Well, I say that now. Definitely subject to change.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

It's just G and me! The older three siblings are off to school. G keeps telling me he wants to go to school! He is being evaluated to see if he qualifies for the Early Learning Program. I should hear something soon. Hopefully.

G's endurance is getting better. He is able to stand for about 10 seconds, maybe 15. It doesn't sound like a whole lot when I write it, but it's progress, baby!

There are several kids about a year younger than G on a couple spina bifida boards I frequent, and they are walking. It's so hard to not compare and feel a little bummed. He IS progressing, and that's what I need to hold on to. I am so excited for the other little ones but a little sad that G is still working on standing. It's hard to try to not rush things. I know deep down he's doing very well and I'm proud of what he CAN do.